I'm by no stretch of the imagination experienced at writing poetry, but I wrote this a while back and discovered it again this evening. I've given it a bit of a tweak and I'd really like to know what people think of it thanks! Style/subject/etc critiques welcomed, interested in interpretations too!
I never said that you were too good for me,
And why bother now, when it’s all too clear,
How could we fit when you had it all figured out?
Perhaps you were just meant to show me how.
I never said that I’d raise your children,
That I would’ve put your chain around my wedding finger.
I’d shut my mouth and walk behind to keep you,
If I felt you’d smile at me and we’d see it through.
I never said that I thought you were beautiful,
But I expected you to tell me I was, and you did,
Frightening power in your hands without my blessing,
I guess I thought you knew and it didn’t need addressing.
I never told you I was proud of you,
I watched you graduate and just like that you were free,
We drank champagne and I kept your paper greeting,
And the selfish things I could have tried to stop you leaving.
I wish I’d never told you that I remembered,
The first time I saw you at the next table,
But I kept the first kiss when you missed my lips,
It’s still in here somewhere; I also keep the shitty bits.
I’ll never tell you about the pain,
And I won’t let myself remember the beauty.
Maybe I’m proud, but it’s all I can be,
Because I know, I’ve always known, that it wasn’t you;
It was me.